Hey guys!
I hope you are all doing well, staying safe, staying healthy and staying sane with everything going on !!
I posted my transformation recently to my instagram page and wanted to elaborate on the post further, I mean we can only type so much in a caption. If you don’t have instagram or haven’t seen the post here is a little recap:
Photo 1 – 143lbs, the heaviest I have ever been in my life. I was weight lifting 6 days a week but eating VERY poorly… for real guys, I mean eating out for breakfast, lunch, dinner, snacks, coffee and all that. It was so bad.
Photo2 – 124lbs taken about 3 months ago. I was weight lifting, doing HIIT, abs and just being more active overall. I made food and only ate at home unless I wanted a treat of course. I limited my processed food, sugar (I had natural sweeteners like honey, maple syrup, etc.) and caffeine.
Photo3 – 121lbs, my current physique. I am not working out as much, when I do I am mostly doing HIIT. I am not eating as well but not AS bad as before. I’m kind of still figuring out this new life due to COVID-19 but I’m feeling better with it all.
The point of my post was that you really can’t out-train a bad diet, you have to incorporate different exercises like HIIT AND weight lifting AND that numbers don’t always tell the whole story. I was way more fit at 124lbs than 121lbs which is where I am at now. I know that this is due to my body composition and likely the decrease of my muscles and increase of my body fat. I also know that a lot of people aren’t too sure about how that all works but I am pretty excited to share that knowledge with everyone !!
Now here is the final thing I wanted to say… although I currently weigh less, my goal was me at 124lb (a little heavier!). This isn’t just based on my physique which I’m not saying I don’t or didn’t love because I did!! It’s because I was WAY more healthier. MY ULTIMATE GOAL IS TO BE ONE OF THOSE ANNOYING HEALTH PEOPLE. I want to eat amazing food all of the time, food that will nurture me and my cells, food that will support my daily activity and energy levels. I want to live an active healthy LIFESTYLE and not worry about what I eat or how much I eat because I’ve developed healthy eating habits. That is what I had and what I was on my way to when I was a little heavier. I felt GOOD, not just because of how my body looked but my energy, my mood, my skin, my breathing (I have pretty bad asthma and my weight effects it!!). I was also super proud of myself for not breaking this, what feels like, lifelong goal of mine. I had self-disciple which I never really had, I was confident and super productive. I had it together and it was amazing!!
So what happened? Well, I did my two week challenge and did not prepare. I lost lots of sleep, didn’t eat enough because I was so busy and burnt myself out. It’s important to note that I can be ‘all or nothing’ at times. I also thought that self-care meant laying around watching Netflix and taking bubblebaths until I felt re-charged… let me tell you, that does not work for me!! So in my ‘all or nothing’ mindset I did nothing, for a while. This included less workouts, less cooking, less posting, less sticking to routines and promises to myself and less self-discipline. You can actually see this within my social media. I posted a couple of deep captions and my postings decreased. All this is what brought me to 121lbs… less activity, less muscles, less healthy eating. Now, I’m not saying I’m miserable and I’m not saying there is anything wrong with being 121lbs. I do think it’s wrong of me to ‘quit’ on myself, to give up my self-discipline and all the work I did and building those healthy habits and I don’t think there is anything wrong with wanting to make the changes that will help me get not only healthier but stronger, more active and just feeling GOOD once again.
I am not unhappy with myself and I know that fluctuations and ups and down are going to happen, it’s normal BUT I do know I can do better. I know what my ultimate goal is to be healthy, to make it a lifestyle, to not have to think about it and to develop those habits. It means that I will have to go through the process all over again, to re-train my mind to be strong but if I can do it once, I can do it again!! The best part about this all is that I’ve actually learned so much about myself and have had so much time to self-reflect that it makes me look forward to the challenge, have my goals in mind but also appreciate the journey.
It feels nice to have a place to write my thoughts out, who knows if anyone will read it but if someone does I hope you can take something away from this.
xx
